damn..
such a hard time..
time is nvr on my side..
how i wish i was older..
how i was i can turn back time..
how i wish time would just stand still sum times..
i just dunno wat to do..
im so tryin my best..
i dun wanna fall into the gaping hole..
even though the lure is so great..
even when i know that im already 1 foot in..
i wanna hold back..
im sure u do too..
its hard i know..
but its has to be done..
this is some crazy shit here..
cant let the history be another page of ur reality..
must stop that now..
if this continues..
its either the most happiest ending in this fairytale...
or its the most horribly sad n heart breakin nightmare imaginable..
i dun want to be that fool again..
i dun want to put in my 2 feet into the room..
but then let the door smack me rite in the face..
sendin out again into the vast wilderness of heart aches n lonesomeness..
but i just cant help it..
its kills me to see u like that..
n i wanna help u..
on the other hand..
im going head on..
full speed..
headin towards a brick wall..
i dun want that..
haiz..
its so tiring for me to feel like this..
i know this may hurt u a lil..
but i just dunno wat else to say..
or to do..
i am tryin my best..
but it seems that i might be heading for..
another trip down into the shallows of my life..
or am i..??
this sucks..