been a very long wk..
actually this is my worst wk so far..
ever since i entered ns sia..
nvr have i suffered so much..
mentally..
physically..
emotionally..
all of them took a long-awaited hit at me..
i've been happy so far..
so its due time to be shot down i guess..
oh well..
life is full of this..
ups as high as the twinkling stars in the sky..
downs as low as the core of the earth we step upon everyday..
haiz..
tough huh??
oh well..
just gotta shrug it off..
n carry on..
nothing else i can do rite??..

ivr been posted to cougar company of bmtc sch 1..
haiz..
so sad..
such a horrible coy..
1 yr of hell it seems..
my bunk sucks..
the ppl posted there also sucks..
i hate to book in tonite..
now i deeply regret rejecting the chance to stay in sispec..
i could be a spec there n train future commanders..
my life is everything about regrets..
no suprise huh??..
enough bout this la..
i dun wanna talk bout it..
more i tink about it..
more i hate it..
n more my feelings change..


went out with her the past 2 days..
fri nite went to club..
i had a wonderful time dancing with her..
i hope she did..
too bad her cam din want to take my pic..
silly girl..
bring cam..
but nvr charge..
oh well..
misakes happen..
on sat went out to town..
din really wanna shop..
but ended up buying a bag n a cardigan..
nice..
i like them alot..
she did too..
she chose the bag actually..
nice taste..
cute huh..
i chose her's the the wk before..
she chose mine this wk..
yeah..
one in a milion..
den after that met up with mafiadon adam n skinnyboy shariff..
lepak at taka..
den headed to suntec to catch a movie..
300..
great movie..
full of fights..
make me feel so demoraled to be a man..
if only i had their body..
power sia..
nice big arms..
huge chests..
toned 6-packs..
foooooo..
hot stuff sak..
oh well..
im not like that..
so cant say anything la..
can only dream..
after movie..
all went saperate ways..
she couldnt bear to leave me..
she so sweet..
i couldnt leave u too la..
i hate being in the army..
i want to ord tom sia..
haiz..
i told u my life sucks..
ok..
till another time..
ciaos..














u only can.. smile.. nth else..

Whenever I'm not around,
and you feelin down
Let the thought of me be
(I be the reason you smile)
I don't wanna see you frown,
like them kids watch a clown
I wanna bring you joy and be
(I be the reason you smile)
Baby, you know my style,
you know how I get down
I provide by any means to be
(I be the reason you smile)
We done been through ups and downs,
had drama for a while
I'm just happy I'm around to be
(I be the reason you smile)